We're busy with applying jobs in NZ... so far no positive response yet
It feels so fast. I've been wanting to move to NZ when I was still single, after watching Lord of the Ring and found that the shooting was done in NZ. Just before Jeremy was born we lodged the application, thinking that it would take 5-6 years (as the process to become PR in Canada). We didn't expect that it's this fast.
Anyway. We're also planning for our Christmas trip to Singapore as we cannot go to Jakarta as papa's family will be traveling away anyway. So we have to at least see my side of the family for maybe it will be a long time before we will see each other again.
I'm going to NCS for at one time I had felt that I could not take my ancient emotional burden with me anymore. It really affected me so much and my relationships with my little family. I feel that it's useful. It's as if now I really have room for my little family, a room that had previously been taken by the negative feelings. The first session was hard, I was so dizzy after that. I don't know how my counselor did that, all she did was listening and affirming my feelings. Anyway, hope I can still improve myself for the sake of my little family. 

A new development in our NZ visa application, papa was interviewed via phone. The notification letter come few weeks ago and today is the appointed date. We were both nervous. Papa did some research and I contacted my friends in NZ. In my opinion it went well, papa sounded calm and answered the questions clearly. Well, we'll have to wait for another 3 weeks to know the result.

My life now: wake up at 07.00 or later :P (papa prepares the breakfast and Tio's lunch), take a bath, pack Tio's lunchbox and Jeremy's food, ride my bike with Jeremy around AIT sometime (to buy food and, rarely, feed the fish), go home, give Jeremy a bath, browse the internet while Jeremy is playing, prepare lunch for me and Jeremy. At 13.00 my maid comes, mops the floor, irons the clothes, washes the dishes. Usually Jeremy naps from 10.00-12.00 but when he wakes up late, he naps at 12.00 or later. Then 15.00 Tio goes home. Help Tio taking his bath, cook our dinner while my maid watch the kids (mostly Jeremy as Tio can play independently now). Take a shower, set the washing machine, remove the food from the electric stove and keep the stove away so my maid can do the dishes (our kitchen is so small that if I don't keep the stove and the food the water will spray on them). The kids get hungry at 16.30 so I feed Jeremy while my maid feed Tio (must admit, I let them watch movie coz Jeremy won't sit still even for just one minute without it). Then at 18.00 my maid goes home. I prepare my own dinner just before she goes home. Papa usually comes soon after or 1-2 hours later when he has training to take care of. Then at night after sweeping the house and washing the dishes, I take some me time watching movies (first was Desperate Housewives, then Pretty Little Liars, then Gladiator, then now I start watching Heroes, it's very gruesome, I didn't know it and I watched it while eating my lunch), I usually end up sleeping at 01.00.

Our maid is good and she has good chemistry with my kids, but somehow not with me. Oh well, I have to tolerate more because I've experienced the worse. It just won't work if the maid doesn't click with the kids. She comes on Mon-Fri. On weekends I sweep and mop the house and clean the bathroom while papa iron the clothes.



Tio will have his graduation on 28 June and he will perform "If we hold on together" with his friends ;)) my big boy is going to kindergarten now. Then he will join summer school which is arranged by some of the mothers (because the school won't arrange any this time). Let's see how it goes

I had been kinda down recently. I felt like I was a failure in about everything, in being a person. Well, wrote it all off to a trusted friend and he suggested that I need to count my blessings more. I started doing that, on and off, but it started to change me. I hope it will last long.

He also said that I need to see the positive side of everything, even in things like Jeremy's crying which is often, long and inconsolable ;)) At first I almost laughed it off, what good could come from it. But suddenly it hit me (when Jeremy was in one of his crying bouts), that by habitually control my emotion when Jeremy is crying (cos Jeremy would scream even more when I or his daddy gets emotional), I can also improve my self control when Tio is crying.

I have to admit it and apologise to Tio, that whenever he cried when he was small I, or sometimes his daddy, would get so emotional that we didn't really help Tio venting off his emotion. Hope I am not too late in changing myself. I've caused much damage to my lovely eldest. Yet he's still so sweet to me. I feel like I don't deserve it.  

19 Oct went to Indo

9 Dec went back to Bangkok, stayed at Center Point Apt. Tio wanted to go back to Abloom. Center Point is ok, but Abloom is better. The room in Abloom was bigger, and the bathroom was so comfy, no bathtub but it was so easy to give bath to Jeremy. In CP I had to put J's bath tub inside the big bath tub and it's so inconvenient esp because J didnt want to sit most of the time, luckily my poor back did not give me any trouble. And in Abloom there was a washing machine operated using tokens. In CP I had to wash the laundry using J's bath tub by bending my back over the big bath tub.

10 Dec salvaging of AIT, so sad to see my house's condition. I broke into tears when I saw J's teddy bear all ruined. We went to look for Jeremy's bed and stroller in Central Chidlom which is near CP

11 Dec papa went to look for apartment. Luckily Vineeta has already booked one room for us. Otherwise we would not get this nice, clean, brand new, affordable and very near to school room. The room is a studio room, costs us 5,000 this month and 6,500 per month starting next month.

We bought fridge, electric induction stove, cooking pan and sauce pans

12 Dec morning we bought Jeremy's play yard where he will sleep in and new stroller that can be used for koko and J. Papa went to the new apt in the afternoon to receive the fridge etc that we bought the day before.

13 Dec at 13.00 checked out from CP. Then we moved to the new apartment. Jeremy slept when we were near the apt and continued sleeping in the apt. I took it as a good sign :)

When we first moved to CP Jeremy was cranky, but after some time he's back to normal again. Then now again he's a bit cranky. Hope he'll be ok soon

The room is nice and clean, I have space to wash and hang the laundry (no space for washing machine), and to give bath to Jeremy. There's water heater, but no wash basin and no space for cooking, it's a bit difficult washing the dishes in the bathroom sink. Things that can be improved: the bathroom floor is so flat that water spread everywhere instead of flowing directly to the drainage and there's no height difference between the shower part and the dry part. The lift and common washing machine are not operating yet and there's the noise from the builders' activity as the apt building is not yet 100% finished, and right outside the building the road is small and a lot of traffic, many stray dogs and their poo poo are scattered everywhere, no park or garden for the kids to play with. Anyway, I like staying in here and the children are ok too.

17 Jan 2011

still I like the place, though it's too small to keep our things and there's so much dust (sometimes I think that's why we cough so much these days)....the best things are that the room is clean and so close to Tio's school