Today, 3 years ago

I'm thankful for you...
we have our ups and downs...
but today, again I am reminded, how lucky I am to have you beside me

being a mom

other than the changes in my daily routine, being a mom also makes me re-think of the way I think about myself and my relationships with others.

- I found that I am not as patient as I appeared to be (and I'd like to think of myself as reasonably patient too, in my toddler-free era :D), I lose my cool rather easily, esp. when Tio is acting up when I'm sleepy, am busy doing something, or am uneasy about something else

- of course it affect my relationship with hubby, I don't have much time to take care of him, nor as much attention as before... we barely can talk as we were both exhausted after Tio sleeps and sometimes we slept before he did (he was lying on the bed, drowsy but still awake) :D.

- my relationships with my own mom and my in-laws... we did not have much to be in touch before, but now that Tio is here, the interest is there.... it's true what they say in the books, it's something like "baby brings the grandparents (and other relatives) closer, and their baggage (incl. emotional baggage), this can be positive or negative"..... I don't have any problem with my in-laws (as it is agreed between me and hubby that we take care of comments or problems caused by our respective side of the family), but I do have problems with my own mom....

- my relationship with the helper/ nanny, of course I did not need any helper before, I could do everything by myself, I could clean up the whole house by myself and even had time to read or do something else I enjoy... but now I need one and I don't really like it coz I have a high standard for everything and most helpers can't meet my standard, i did compromise on this, but combined with other things my dislike to the helper grows even more and more :P.....and I never had any helper in the house before.... and it's difficult to find one who can understand and follow my principles in parenting....esp. if she's senior.... I think I should try to live without one.....others can do it, why can't I

- my relationships with other parents, esp during playdates... toddler can't be expected to share all the time (with Tio right now, not at all :D), to behave well, to understand that mommy has needs and has to do other things when he wants to go outside or to his friend's house..... I still don't know what to do when we are at Tio's friend's house to play or when other kids are here to play..... and I have to do small talks more often now coz other parents or even strangers in the shopping mall talked to me about babies etc. (I like this part, though)

My life today

Ehm... another update
Beberapa waktu lalu I was surprised to find that someone is following this blog. I don't think my life is interesting and my writing is even less so. Hehehe, maybe he'd mistaken this blog with someone else's blog?

Kali ini mo curhat n nulis aja ttg my daily life with Tio, ky nya yg lalu2 udah aku tulis... yg sekarang aja deh aku tulis....

Gak terasa sejak aku resign dari kerja, berat badanku jd naik drastis... yah emang sejak Tio lahir aku makannya gak dijaga... belakangan tambah gila2an aja... dng berbagai alasan
- makan biar ASI lancar
- makan sekarang yg kenyang (banget) krn gak tahu kapan lagi sempat makan (soalnya most of the time Tio will not let me be away from him, esp when I leave him with his nanny. If he's with his daddy, I can have some free time)

Tanpa kerja kantor berarti aku cuma di rumah aja, gak ada naik turun tangga, gak ada naik sepeda ke kantor.... makin parah deh.... trus aku gak berani nimbang dulu2... trus lihat foto (aku jarang banget foto, sadar klo gak fotogenik sih) shock kok aku jadi lebar banget....abis gitu nimbang makin shock deh... beratku sama dng berat terberat pas hamil

It's nobody else's fault but me....dasar doyan makan... begitu dapet excuse langsung deh diumbar....

Seminggu belakangan ini aku coba diet dikit (tapi masih 95% gagal) dan olahraga jalan pagi 20 menit... maunya sih ditingkatkan, tapi gak tahu bisa gak ya mengingat Tio klo bangun selalu cari aku.....

Dulu sebelum hamil kan aku rajin fitness... abis tahu hamil bingung mo di-freeze membershipnya atau di-terminate aja... tadinya mikir mo di-freeze aja (tetep bayar partial utk keep the membership) soalnya liat ada temen abis nglahirin bisa fitness... tapi ternyata gak segampang itu :P klo ASI sih bisa diperes sebelum pergi, tapi gak tega ninggalin Tio berdua aja ama bapaknya... sekarang pun masih....

My daily activities now

0630 wake up (papa has to wake me up, otherwise I'll sleep the morning away till Tio wakes up), bantu2 papa kerjain kerjaan rumah dikit
0700 jalan
0730 paling lambat, udah pulang
Tio bangun
suapin makan sambil nonton komputer
mandiin Tio
aku mandi
main ama Tio
1100 masak
1200 papa pulang, makan siang
1400 Tio tidur, aku bisa internetan atau tidur jg klo cape
1630 bawa Tio jalan/ kantor papa/ ke playground
1700 papa pulang
Tio makan
Tio mandi
aku mandi
main ama Tio
2230 atau 2300 paling lambat Tio tidur
aku sekarang tidur jg atau setrika baju Tio klo nanny lagi libur
dulu malem2 bisa internetan atau ngerjain job2an
sekarang lagi gak ada job... gak belain tidur malem/ subuh deh
tidur malem jg salah satu pemicu kenaikan berat badan
jd sekarang I'm lagging behind in my social life deh
coz my social life is virtual :P... I think I better start socializing in real life again....

Tio drove us insane today. He ate so little at lunch, didn't want to take his nap, but he was cranky and so whiny in the afternoon. I feel so exhausted.

Lately I couldn't find much me-time. I don't have time for social activities (incl. arisan YM :D, blog/ diary/ FB walking :D) he's so full of energy and always wants my attention.

Yesterday I and kangmas just discussed about a second child (thanks to the late coming of my period, maybe now I have 37-38 days cycle?). We agree to start trying when Tio is 2 y.o. so I start taking folic acid now and I suggested him to take it too. I will start looking for info again on what to prepare for pregnancy (vaccination, medical tests to take, etc.)

Well but today got me thinking again.... it's so exhausting raising one child.... can we manage with two? I couldn't help lashing out at Tio too earlier today. If one child can provoke me that much, how about if there are two?

Something else just crossed my mind. 1-2 years ago there was a Canadian student here, he's kind of standing out among the crowd because of his height and his acts. We often saw him coz we frequented the same food vendor. We didn't think he took any notice of us. So we were surprised that one day he approached us and talked to us. He said his ancestor was Indian (as in the native people of America) and he has the gift of seeing people's spirit. He said that both I and my husband are tiger people. We have the spirit of tiger. It's not something related to our Chinese/ Western zodiac, he said. He said we are strong but we will have territorial problem should we meet with other tigers. Well.... I admit that both I and my husband are strong and hard headed. I'm kind of afraid that we would act too hard to our children and affect them.....

For sure Tio brings us unmeasurable joy and another child will bring more joy.... but I'm worried that I will do things all wrong and damage these beautiful gifts.....

Mo ngomel ajah

Pengen ngomel ajah ttg tetangga yg kebangsaannya laen (B********h)

Anaknya (2th ++) sehari2 dibiarin aja berkeliaran di rumah2 tetangga (kami tinggal di semacam dormitory, dimana 6 rumah berjajar2 dan pintu masuk saling terhubung dng teras yg memanjang)

Mereka punya pembantu tapi cuek sekalih, si pembantu ini punya grup (mereka bukan orang Thai, kynya sodaraan atau at least satu desa) dimana salah satunya aku tahu suka ngeceng, tiap kali liat pasti lagi telpon sambil "mengasuh" anak momongannya (i.e. anak itu dibiarin di stroller, kepanasan atau deket dng orang yg lagi motong rumput pake lawnmower!!! sementara dia asyik telpon). Pembantu tetanggaku ini gak peduli anak asuhnya ada dimana. Tapi gimana gak gitu, wong mamanya sendiri aja cuek.

Jadi si anak ini sering keliaran di depan rumah2 tetangga tanpa celana, pernah ngompol di depan rumahku, pernah poo poo di depan rumah tetangga lain yg orang filipin. Waktu ngompol di depan rumah aku telp tuh rumahnya, kebetulan ada bapaknya jd si pembantu disuruh bersihin bekasnya di depan rumahku.

Bapaknya kerja di lain negara. Jd sehari2 hanya bertiga ama mama dan pembantunya. Si mama pernah bilang ama aku bhw dia selama hari kerja udah capek kerja jadi kalo pulang rumah dan weekend maunya santai. Aku gak terlalu perhatian waktu itu karena rumahnya jauh dari rumahku. Setelah mereka pindah jd tetanggaku baru aku ngerti maksudnya. I cannot help judging her. Yah, aku jg gak munafik ada pengen jg punya "me time", pengen santai kadang dan suka kesel jg klo Tio gak mau tidur2. Tapi ky nya si temenku ini bener2 cuek deh. Yah klo udah punya anak mana bisa spt itu, anaknya diumbar, dilepas berkeliaran. I mean, come on.... kamu udah punya anak, entah direncanakan atau tidak, dia udah lahir, udah jd tanggung jawabmu utk mendidik & merawat dia. Gak bisa dooong kalo pengen bener2 bertingkah as if you were single.

Kata kangmas (yg pernah diundang masuk waktu dia sama Tio) sih di rumahnya banyak sekali mainan. Mungkin itu caranya mengungkapkan kasih sayang?

Anak ini belum bisa ngomong padahal udah sekolah, mamanya nyalahin itu karena keturunan dari bapaknya yg juga terlambat in everything :P ohhoooo yah klo gak pernah ada yg ngajarin ya gimana si anak mau ngomong.....

Kasihan sih si anak ini, tapi aku gak mungkin ajak dia masuk rumahku, wong gak ada pengasuhnya trus anak ini sering batuk, ingusan dan suka jilatin pintuku, i.e. mosquito net (eeewww)... aku kasihan tapi lebih pilih to protect my own offspring dong... daripada Tio sakit ketularan dia padahal bisa dihindari. Jadi sering terpaksa kita suruh pulang si anak kalo udah berdiri di depan pintu kita sambil jilat2 gitu. Abis si Tio jg pasti mendekat trus "ngobrol" ama dia dan suka pukul2an through the mosquito net gitu deh. Yah takut jg sih ngasih contoh gak baik (mengusir orang lain :P) tapi gimana yah...

Can't she put herself in other people's shoe? Udah tahu anak batuk sakit ingusan gitu kok dibiarin keliaran. Gimana coba kalo anaknya yg dideketin orang dng penyakit menular gitu. Atau mungkin dia gak peduli jg ya? Ohhh pokoknya lagi pengen ngomel ttg tetangga satu ini....

Valentine

it's been a lovely day
started with a surprise from my loved one
I had expected nothing more special than a dine out (which, as it turned out, we did not do :D)
but he surprised me with his gift
he's so sweet and thoughtful and I'm so lucky
I mean it
I've been a lousy wife most of the times
selfish and bad cook
anyway, I really feel blessed to have him beside me

and Tio's been nice too today, though he'd carried out another of his hunger strike :D

Love you, kangmas

updates

apa yah... pengen nulis aja
aku udah dapet bayaran 2 project kemaren, hehehe lumayan deh rasanya dapet duit
tapi ada pengeluaran tak terduga jg nih soal e sepeda dicuri orang
yah buang sial deh
emang salah jg gak dikunci, abis klo pulang rumah dari jalan ama Tio suka buru2 naik atau Tio keburu jalan ke playground....
jam 13 kangmas pulang makan siang itu masih ada, tapi sore jam 17 dia pulang dari kantor udah gak ada sepedaku.... hiks.... ya sud...
- cari sepeda baru susahnya bukan main, di thammasart dulu ada toko sepeda, kemaren ke sana ternyata udah tutup
- bycicle shop disini gak ada sepeda cewek
- akhirnya tadi ke talad thai, naik taxi gelap kata bapaknya bisa dimasukkin di kursi belakang, eh ternyata gak bisa... doh bingung mana penjualnya bilang gak mau nganter... untung setelah ngeliat pak sopir kerepotan masukkin sepeda gitu si penjual akhirnya mau nganter, biarpun tambah bayar 200 Baht lagi yah gpp lah,
Gak ada sepeda sih sebetulnya gak terlalu masalah karena aku jg jarang keluar, tapi trus jadinya Tio gak bisa diajak jalan agak jauh (ke arcade, kolam renang, ke gereja, jemput papa di kantor)
Dudukan sepeda utk Tio ada di rumah (abis pake biasanya dibawa masuk), tapi gak ada jagrak nya ya gak bisa kepake lagi... mo beli jagrak nya aja gak boleh

Kerjaan baru

Dapet kerjaan baru... haish susahnya.. rasanya mo give up
tapi klo diinget2 yg kerjaan lalu2 jg awalnya susah banget udah mo give up aja tapi dijalanin bisa jg akhirnya.... tapi ya gitu deh, kurang tidur lagi :D
tapi ini awal2 begini susah banget mo mulai kerja, pengennya browsing2 gak jelas mulu.... jg fesbuk nih bikin ketagihan... haish haish haish....

ehm apa yah judulnya.. history of my skin care?

ini postingan gak penting (emang pernah ada yg penting ya? hehehe)

hiks disuruh sortir (dan buang) kosmetik2 yg lama gak tersentuh di kulkas....

jd inget2 dulu masa2 tiap minggu bisa facial treatment hehehe... sayang jg oi... masih byk jg yg belum dibuka (kadang lupa, pas ke dokternya kirain abis, ternyata di rumah msh ada stok)

kulit mukaku dari dulu parah banget... overall kulitku emang jelek... waktu kecil jg gampang alergi/ biduran.... waktu smp/sma/ kuliah jerawatan.... sekarang kasar ky parutan (kata dokter sih seborrhoic dermatitis, ga tahu deh tulisannya gimana, susah bener) dan bercak2.... klo saja manusia bisa ganti kulit, pasti udah dari dulu2 aku tukarin...

jd dulu zaman kecil sampai sma gak ada perawatan kulit apa2, paling jg pas sma maskeran sendiri... couldn't afford anything better than that.... trus kuliah pas zaman2 jayanya extraderm aku cobain jg... kebetulan punya duit hasil kasih les privat..... lumayan manjur sih kulitku jd alus dan putiiiiihhh.... tp lama2 takut jg... karena katanya bikin kulit tipis dan makin sensitif ama matahari....

pindah ke thailand, awal2 gak ada treatment khusus jg... mahasiswa bok... gak ada pendapatan.... abis kerja, baru deh bisa cobain spa (tapi bukan facial treatment krn gak tahu yg bagus *dan gak mahal2 amat* dimana).... cuma bisa treatment di dokter waktu pulang kampung en pake produk perawatan dokter tsb jg tp kurang cespleng mgkn karena kurang rutin jg..... trus belakangan baru nemu klinik *hasil coba2* yg ok, treatmentnya enak gak sakit, gak mahal dan obatnya aku cocok, zaman2 mo merit giat banget deh ke sini... seminggu sekali..... hehehehe....

setelah ketahuan hamil... gak berani lagi deh treatment/ pake obat2nya..... sampe sekarang... berarti udah 27 bulan obat2an itu tak tersentuh.... berat hati kubuang jg tadi....

berikutnya stok kosmetik.... udah gak tersentuh jg... abis krn gak treatment kan wajah jd kasar tuh, jd nya malees banget mo dandan.... mo kasih fondation kok kasar gituh... hiks.... kapan ya aku bisa mulai lagi... sebenernya klo mau sih bisa ninggalin tio ama nanny atau bapaknya di rumah.... tp kok giling filti jg klo ninggalin just for facial treatment gituh.......

sekarang sih aku peeling sendiri pake scrub nya baking soda, beli pore cleanser yg sedot2 ky di salon dan maskeran sendiri tp ya rasanya masih kurang aja :P

Tio's 2nd stay in Jkt

Tio's vocabulary

Tio's vocab has grown fast during this 3 weeks stay. Mostly he says words in English: car, bus, truck, cow, dog, pig, duck, sit, up down,... oh I cannot remember all... but it is amazing that some words that I haven't taught him for a long time (I taught him long time ago) he can say them suddenly.

Tio and the shopping malls

We went from one shopping mall to another in Jkt. Sometimes because I needed to see my friends, sometimes just for spending time. Tio is becoming more active and independent. He would stroll along by himself and looked at new things. The first time he saw the airport he exclaimed "wooowww... woowww", so did he when he went inside the lift at the Pacific Place shopping mall. He would touch and *sometimes* drop CD cases, boxes of cereal.. he would pick up fruits (passion fruit, apple) and pretended to eat them... He's done those things too before we went to Indo but now he seems to be more attentive to the things around him and wants to touch everything. Particularly he's interested in baloons (any kind), vacuum cleaner (he would look at the demo and imitated the sound and his hands would move as if he was vacuuming), cars (he likes to touch the cars and their wheels), and pebbles (he took some from flower pots at the Grand Indonesia).

Our last visit to the mall was on our way to the airport, to have dinner with his uncle and his uncle's friends. He did not want to be carried. He walked and walked and explored. He was like an eel, wriggling and kicking about. We had trouble taking him out of the mall, as we had not much time before flying.

Tio and grandparents

Tio lets his uncle and his uncle's friend play with him and often he came to them, initiating the play. But he didn't want to be left alone with his grandparents, from both sides.

we're home, finally

The trip back to BKK was much more convenient than the trip to CGK

First of all, Tio didnt cry when the passengers boarded the aircraft. Maybe because we sat at the middle part of the plane, not at the first row (at the emergency exit) like in the first trip. So he didnt see many people *seemingly* coming at him. We were told, upon check-in, that actually passengers with infant cannot sit at the emergency exit. But sometimes we can, maybe not all check-in staff knows this. Also, there were not so many people this time, only 90 something passengers were there.

Secondly, we got the whole row (3 seats) for ourselves, so I could lay Tio down on my lap. He could sleep more comfortably and I could carry him more comfortably too. During the first trip, I had stiff arms and legs for supporting him sleeping sitting up. We were not able to lay him on our laps because the armrest between us was not movable (coz we were at the emergency exit).

Third, Tio slept almost during the whole trip. He stood up but didn't ask to be carried or to walk inside the aircraft. He asked for food and drink and to be read to. But he was very well behaved. Only when we were waiting for the immigration check *long queue*, he cried a bit. Maybe because his sleep was disturbed and he wanted "nom" *to drink breastmilk* but I couldnt feed him because we were worried that it would be our turn before he finish drinking and also there was no proper place to breastfeed him. He had to wait until we were in the van (which took some time too for the driver to come and pick us up).

Back at home, he seems excited. Like he wants to show that he remembers things. He hugged his doll, rode on his truck, pointed here and there. And when his nanny came, to my surprise, he didnt cry when she picked him up and carried him. He played while his nanny watching. Oh I'm so glad that the transition happened smoothly.

Now I'm going to write about our stay in Jakarta.

Stranded in Jakarta - 2

Excerpt from my email to a friend:

On 29 Nov we were told that Garuda would fly to BKK on 4 Dec.

But then, on 3 Dec they told us that actually they had a flight on 2 Dec and they were not able to contact us, so they considered us as "no show".

They moved us to 4 Dec, but then somehow (I forgot what was the reason) we were moved to 6 Dec.

And then we were told that they cancel the flight on 6 Dec and will only fly on 11 Dec.

However, this is a blessing in disguise... had we flight earlier we might have landed at U Tapao airport and we heard that the condition was not so ok there. So many people while the facility is so limited. We were worried for Tio.

It is soooo relieving to know that the SVB is back to normal now. I had tried asking some friends in BKK (via mailing list) but no one has the information. Now we can have a peace of mind. I miss BKK already.

Stranded in Jakarta

so here we are still in Jakarta...

we were supposed to fly back last night, but those stupid people has prevented us from doing so

it's been enjoyable staying in Jkt... but nothing compares to home sweet home....

Tio's been acting up a little bit during our stay here, he's really trying my patience, and -sadly- I lose it often...... maybe it's just another stage in his development, maybe he's still trying to cope with the changes.... there were so many out-of-his routine things happened to him during this time... but maybe it's good for him to deviate from his routine life back home and maybe he'd learn something out of it.....but even I begin to miss the familiarity of our life and routine back there....

I've done with one project, just waiting for the payment to be made now hahaha.... oh my "sleep at 3 am" days have ended....... the other one is still ongoing, but there's not much I have to do now....

mmhh... udah beberapa hari ini cuaca sejuk... enak, tapi aneh jg.. gak biasa... udah terbiasa dng panasnya udara disini...

getting anxious about going to Indo... worrying about how well Tio can cope with the changes....

my other report is taking shape now *one report was done, the ball is not in my court right now* but there are still lots to be done... and i'm getting sleepier each day.... i need at least 8 hours of sleep to be able to function well and getting only a max of 5 hours these days....

while my son, he seems to need less sleep than his parents do, hehehe... what a bundle of energy you are, baby....

Hujan

It's 1:22 now... it's raining outside... after quite some time without rain... it's nice to hear the sound of the water falling outside the window... nice to feel the cool air (pake air con sih, tapi kan jd makin sejuk, biasanya setel 24 C aja gak adem)....

It's been a long day

tadi 8.30-14.00 aku away dari Tio karena pergi ke Bkk utk meeting job yg satu... Tio gak diajak karena kasihan nanti 2 jam dia mo dimana.. di mall bisa sih tapi gak familiar, kasihan bapaknya ntar repot...

trus pulang rumah eh kok ya nemu lemari bukunya dimakan rayap dan jadi sarang rayap hiiiiii
bapak e Tio jadi sibuk deh seharian.... rumah jadi berantakan... kasihan pasti cape jg bapak e Tio...

cape dehhhh......

ngomel pembantu lagi :D

nanny nya tio kan sekarang udah lambat (ya udah sepuh sih) trus udah gak bisa masak (karena gak tahan berdiri lama2), jagain tio jg kurang efektif soalnya aku takut nanti dia gak ngatasin kalo tio lari atau narik something dari meja atau apa... dan kadang jg takut soalnya dulu sempat tio dikasih main termometer! padahal ditempelin di deket kaca meja rias (jadi bukan tio yg ngambil sendiri)..... aku jadinya takut kalo something like that happen lagi, dikasih mainan yg sebetulnya bahaya

trus barusan tadi aku liat, tio ditinggal sendirian di stroller sedang dia kira2 3 meter away.... nah kalo tio tiba2 berdiri aku yakin dia pasti gak sempat nangkep.... aku jadi marah deh... langsung aku dia meskipun bukan nada marah banget tapi pasti dia tahu kalo aku marah ... dia jg sadar bhw dia gak akan sempat nangkep kalo tio tiba2 berdiri .... trus sambil ketawa gitu ngomongnya... ya mungkin utk menetralisir suasana... tapi aku masih sebel...

dia jg sering cuti utk ke dokter... 1/2 hari sih pagi aja.. waktu aku nganggur ga ada job2an sih aku izinin, berhubung sekarang aku lagi sibuk (sibuk nulis di sini jg nih hehehe) aku gak izinin (dia bisa pergi sore jg sih jam 16, tapi dia harus bayar, kalo pergi pagi dia gak perlu bayar karena yg sore ini semacam klinik yg lebih VIP di RS pemerintah yg sama)... nah ky nya dia nyindir2 "kalo pergi sore byk orang, dokter bilang kalo pagi sepi" padahal dulu bilang kalo pagi jg rame karena gratis.... mmm aku jadi agak2 gimana gitu... yah aku pura2 bodo aja... toh kalo aku gak sibuk jg aku iziini cuti pagi dan dia jg tahu itu....

sebetulnya udah agak lama kepikir mau ganti... soalnya jadi dia gak banyak membantu.. paling sapu, ngepel dan setrika... ya jujur aja, rasanya kok gak worth it kalo kita bayarin dia full tapi ga banyak bantu... dia sih ky nya ga mau dilepas (dulu pernah dia bilang mo kerja 1/2 hari aja... trus kangmas bilang mo cari orang utk yg 1/2 hari nya... tapi dia ga mau, mungkin takut kalo orang baru itu lebih baik trus dia dilepas).... trus kita jg ga tau kalo cari orang baru gimana soalnya dia ky nya "boss mafia pembantu" disini dan jaringannya ky nya kuat... lagian orang baru jg belum tentu lebih baik ...

ga tahu deh nanti gimana.. dipikir pikir pikir pikir pikir pikir dulu lagi

Burning the midnight oil

It's not easy working at home...
I should be thankful for getting jobs that I can do from home, I AM... and not only one, but two jobs at the same time... if I finish these jobs well, then I can get the same amount of money had I been working full time for almost 5 months.... plus I get to spend my time with Tio...
but it's not easy to find time to work on it... honestly I'm worried that I won't be able to finish them on time.... hiks....

Reminiscing the old days

I found many of my junior and highschool classmates or schoolmates through facebook. It brought back the memories of those days. It is amazing to see how we are scattered around the world now and how different our worlds are.

I wasn't a popular student during those years. In fact I was shy, perhaps my schoolmates considered me as weird or nerd. Not to the same degree as Carrie White, but weird nonetheless. With my lacking sense of fashion, dull appearance and quietness. But I was good at academic achievement and made some friends because of it, I could say. I help them with their homework and sometime during exam (yes, I did that too :P)

I chatted with a schoolmate recently. She is someone whom I considered to be a popular student, she is a part of a gang of popular students. It came to me as a surprise that she told me she was afraid that I would reject her friend request because I might have not known or forgotten her. She told me that she doesn't think herself as popular, she thinks of herself as a crazy one. She also told me that she never considered me as a nerd. Just quiet. Hmm.... I believe she told me the truth... I think of her as someone one who speaks bluntly without flowery words.

I also remember of my junior and highschool crush (hehehe, it's only one person)... It is funny to remember that I was so happy passing by his grandma's house (somehow I found out his grandma's address, I forgot how) or caught a glimpse of him from the balcony (my classroom was on the 2nd floor). Sooo cheesy LOL :D

Rediscovering the comfort of hot showers

Long hot showers were taken for granted in my younger days.
In the days when I could go to the gym every other day, it was nice to have a hot shower after exercising. But that's it, nice.

These days, long hot shower is a luxury, but even a short one is a special thing to enjoy.
After a long, hot and humid day... smelling garlic and chili or greasy after cooking......an afternoon session with Tio at the playground (boy, I didn't know that a small baby can have that much energy)... it is very refreshing to take a hot shower, all I have to do is to close my eyes and feel the warmth.....and I feel much better afterward... ready for the long night :D

My night is still young at 19.00.... these last two days Tio took up a new habit, a nap at 19.00 for half an hour, then he would be so energized and fully charged that he went to sleep at 22.30 (before, he slept at 22.00), half an hour didn't seem much, but with this active toddler that makes you hold your breath every 10 seconds as he does his acrobatic actions, runs around and almost bump into a sharp furniture corner or a wall, it feels long..... hahaha... anyway, he's so funny and I enjoy watching him most of the time ....

These last two days too I started a new consultancy job, I still work from home, but I dont get much time to work on the job during the day, as Tio would always find me :D oh honestly I love it when he comes to me and calls "mmmaaahh"... so here I am working till the wee hours of the day.....

stupid lies

kenapa sih orang berbohong secara bodoh?

apa karena
1. menganggap yg dibohongi itu begitu bodohnya sehingga gak akan tahu kalo dibohongi
2. mereka sendiri gak pintar2 amat shg tidak bisa berbohong secara pinter
3. kepepet... maksudku dalam keadaan cepet2 jadi apa aja yg bisa diomongin langsung diomongin tanpa mikir

contoh kebohongan yg bodoh

1. ada temen dulu waktu kuliah, biasanya kan abis test, kertas jawaban kita yg udah dikasih nilai ditaruh aja di loket Tata USaha, trus daftar nilainya dipampangin di papan pengumuman berkaca yg terkunci. Trus si temen ini menghapus nilainya pake tip ex, ditulisin sendiri (lebih bagus tentunya), trus protes ke dosen. Karuan aja dosennya malah marah dan dia kena sanksi (kalo gak salah langsung dikasih D utk mata kuliah itu dan harus mengulang)

2. pembantu nya temen, nyuapin anak asuhnya (kira2 2 th deh umurnya) dng indomie yg pedes... si anak nangis.... eh si pembantu ngeles: bukan saya yg ngasih bumbu pedas ke indomie itu.... lah klo bukan situ lalu sapa? masak anaknya sendiri yg masukkin?

3. pembantu saya hehehehe... tio lagi tidur di rocker nya... tadinya aku yg tungguin, trus karena aku harus masak buat tio, aku minta dia yg tungguin... rocker nya tio ini bisa disetel beroda (maju mundur) atau tanpa roda (diayun2 spt kursi goyang)... kalo aku yg nidurin tio, aku setel dalam posisi kursi goyang (karena rodanya udah mulai rusak).... tapi kalo si bibi senengnya posisi beroda.... nah tau2 tio bangun nangis.... kata bibi, tio melek trus liat bibi langsung nangis.... trus setelah aku mau nidurin tio lagi... baru aku tahu kalo sekarang rockernya itu dalam posisi beroda... which means si bibi berusaha naikkin roda itu saat tio tidur.... which means tio bangunnya karena itu (pasti berasa kalo roda dinaikkin waktu tio ada di atas rocker itu).... hmmm .....